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שער הבטחון, פרק ה
אֲבָל הַהֶפְרֵשׁ שֶׁבֵּין הַבּוֹטֵחַ עַל הָאֱלֹקִים וְזוּלָתוֹ בְּעִנְיַן הִתְעַסְּקוֹ בְּסִבּוֹת הַטֶּרֶף אֹמַר כִּי הַבּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים יִבָּדֵל מִזּוּלַת הַבּוֹטֵחַ עָלָיו בְּשִׁבְעָה עִנְיָנִים.
אֶחָד מֵהֶם כִּי הַבּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים רוֹצֶה בְּדִינוֹ בְּכָל עִנְיָנָיו וּמוֹדֶה לוֹ עַל הַטּוֹבָה וְעַל הָרָעָה כְּמוֹ שֶׁאָמַר (איוב א כא) ה׳ נָתַן וַה׳ לָקָח יְהִי שֵׁם ה׳ מְבֹרָךְ, וּכְמוֹ שֶׁכָּתוּב (תהלים קא א) חֶסֶד וּמִשְׁפָּט אָשִׁירָה, וְאָמְרוּ רַבּוֹתֵינוּ זִכְרוֹנָם לִבְרָכָה (גמרא ברכות ס ב) אִם חֶסֶד אָשִׁירָה וְאִם מִשְׁפָּט אָשִׁירָה, וְאָמְרוּ (משנה ברכות ט ה) חַיָּב אָדָם לְבָרֵךְ עַל הָרָעָה כְּשֵׁם שֶׁמְּבָרֵךְ עַל הַטּוֹבָה.
וַאֲשֶׁר אֵינֶנּוּ בּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים מִתְהַלֵּל עַל הַטּוֹבָה כְּמוֹ שֶׁנֶּאֱמַר (תהלים י ג) כִּי הִלֵּל רָשָׁע עַל תַּאֲוַת נַפְשׁוֹ וְגוֹ׳, וּמִתְקַצֵּף בֵּאלֹקִים עַל הָרַע כְּמוֹ שֶׁנֶּאֱמַר (ישעיה ח כא) וְהָיָה כִי יִרְעַב וְהִתְקַצַּף וְקִלֵּל בְּמַלְכּוֹ וְגוֹ׳.
וְהַשֵּׁנִי כִּי הַבּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים נַפְשׁוֹ בִּמְנוּחָה וְלִבּוֹ שָׁלֵו מִצַּד הַגְּזֵרוֹת לְדַעְתּוֹ כִּי הַבּוֹרֵא יַנְהִיגֵן לְטוֹבָתוֹ בְּעוֹלָמוֹ וְאַחֲרִיתוֹ כְּמוֹ שֶׁאָמַר דָּוִד עָלָיו הַשָּׁלוֹם (תהלים סב ו) אַךְ לֵאלֹקִים דּוֹמִּי נַפְשִׁי כִּי מִמֶּנּוּ תִּקְוָתִי. וַאֲשֶׁר אֵינֶנּוּ בּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים הוּא בְּצַעַר תָּדִיר וּדְאָגָה אֲרֻכָּה וְאֵבֶל וְעֶצֶב לֹא יָמוּשׁוּ מִמֶּנּוּ בַּטּוֹבָה וּבָרָעָה. בַּטּוֹבָה מִפְּנֵי מִעוּט רְצוֹתוֹ בְּמַצָּבוֹ וּשְׁאִיפָתוֹ לְהוֹסִיף וּלְהַרְבּוֹת וְלִכְנֹס. וּבָרָעָה מִפְּנֵי שֶׁהוּא קָץ בָּהּ וְהִיא כְּנֶגֶד תַּאֲוָתוֹ וְטִבְעוֹ וּמִדּוֹתָיו. וְכֵן אָמַר הֶחָכָם (משלי טו טו) כָּל יְמֵי עָנִי רָעִים וְגוֹ׳.
וְהַשְּׁלִישִׁי כִּי הַבּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים וְאִם יִתְעַסֵּק בְּסִבּוֹת לֹא יִסָּמֵךְ בְּלִבּוֹ עֲלֵיהֶן וְלֹא יְקַוֶּה מֵהֶן תּוֹעֶלֶת וְלֹא נֶזֶק מִבִּלְתִּי רְצוֹן הָקֵל אַךְ מִתְעַסֵּק בָּהֶן לִבְחֹר בַּעֲבוֹדַת הַבּוֹרֵא אֲשֶׁר צִוָּה לְהִתְעַסֵּק בָּעוֹלָם לְיַשְּׁבוֹ וּלְזַיְּנוֹ. וְאִם תַּגִּיעֵהוּ תּוֹעֶלֶת אוֹ יִדְחֶה בָּהֶן הַנֶּזֶק יוֹדֶה הָאֱלֹקִים לְבַדּוֹ עַל זֶה וְלֹא יוֹסִיף בָּהֶן אַהֲבָה וְחִבָּה יְתֵרָה וְלֹא תָּנוּחַ נַפְשׁוֹ עֲלֵיהֶן יוֹתֵר אַךְ יֶחֱזַק בִּטְחוֹנוֹ בֵּאלֹקִים וְיִסָּמֵךְ לִבּוֹ עָלָיו מִבַּלְעֲדֵי הַסִּבּוֹת. וְאִם לֹא יוֹעִילוּהוּ הַסִּבּוֹת יֵדַע כִּי יְבוֹאֵהוּ טַרְפּוֹ כְּשֶׁיִּרְצֶה ה׳ מֵאֵיזֶה עִנְיָן שֶׁיִּרְצֶה וְלֹא יִמְאַס בָּהֶן בַּעֲבוּר זֶה וְלֹא יַנִּיחַ לְהִתְעַסֵּק בָּהֶם לַעֲבוֹדַת הַבּוֹרֵא.
וַאֲשֶׁר אֵינֶנּוּ בּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים מִתְעַסֵּק בַּסִּבּוֹת לְבִטְחוֹנוֹ עֲלֵיהֶן שֶׁהֵן מוֹעִילוֹת אוֹתוֹ וְדוֹחוֹת הַנֶּזֶק מֵעָלָיו. וְאִם הֵן מוֹעִילוֹת אוֹתוֹ יְשַׁבֵּחַ אוֹתָן וִישַׁבֵּחַ הִשְׁתַּדְּלוּתוֹ בָּהֶן וְיִבְחַר אוֹתָן וְלֹא יִפְנֶה אֶל זוּלָתָן. וְאִם אֵינָן מוֹעִילוֹת לוֹ יַנִּיחַ אוֹתָן וְיִמְאָסֵן וְיָשׁוּב חֶפְצוֹ מֵהֶן כְּמוֹ שֶׁאָמַר הַכָּתוּב (חבקוק א טז) עַל כֵּן יְזַבֵּחַ לְחֶרְמוֹ וִיקַטֵּר לְמִכְמַרְתּוֹ.
וְהָרְבִיעִי כִּי הַבּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים כְּשֶׁיִּוָּתֵר לוֹ דָּבָר עַל מְזוֹנוֹ יוֹצִיאֶנּוּ בְּמָה שֶׁמֵּפִיק רְצוֹן הַבּוֹרֵא יִתְבָּרַךְ בִּנְדִיבוּת נַפְשׁוֹ וְטוּב לְבָבוֹ כְּמוֹ שֶׁנֶּאֱמַר (דברי הימים א כט יד) כִּי מִמְּךָ הַכֹּל וְגוֹ׳.
וּמִי שֶׁאֵינֶנּוּ בּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים אֵינֶנּוּ רוֹאֶה הָעוֹלָם וְכָל אֲשֶׁר בּוֹ דֵּי פַּרְנָסָתוֹ וְסִפּוּק צָרְכּוֹ וְהוּא חָס עַל מָמוֹנוֹ מֵהַשְׁלִים חוֹבוֹת הַבּוֹרֵא וְחוֹבוֹת בְּנֵי אָדָם מִמֶּנּוּ וְאֵינֶנּוּ מַרְגִּישׁ בּוֹ עַד שֶׁיֹּאבַד מִמֶּנּוּ מָמוֹנוֹ וְיִשָּׁאֵר זוּלָתוֹ כְּמוֹ שֶׁאָמַר הֶחָכָם (משלי יא כד) יֵשׁ מְפַזֵּר וְנוֹסָף עוֹד וְחוֹשֵׂךְ מִיֹּשֶׁר אַךְ לְמַחְסוֹר.
וְהַחֲמִישִׁי כִּי הַבּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים הוּא מִתְעַסֵּק בְּסִבּוֹת הָעוֹלָם לְהָכִין מֵהֶם צֵידָה לְאַחֲרִיתוֹ וְסִפּוּק לְבֵית מוֹעֲדוֹ וּמָה שֶׁיִּתְבָּרֵר לוֹ בּוֹ הַצָּלַת תּוֹרָתוֹ וְעוֹלָמוֹ מִתְעַסֵּק בּוֹ וּמָה שֶׁיִּהְיֶה בּוֹ שׁוּם הֶפְסֵד בְּתוֹרָתוֹ אוֹ מֵבִיא לְהַמְרוֹת הַבּוֹרֵא אֵינֶנּוּ מִתְעַסֵּק בּוֹ שֶׁלֹּא יָבִיא לְעַצְמוֹ מַדְוֶה תַּחַת הָאֲרוּכָה.
וּמִי שֶׁאֵינוֹ בּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים בּוֹטֵחַ עַל הַסִּבּוֹת וְתָנוּחַ דַּעְתּוֹ עֲלֵיהֶן וְלֹא יִרְחַק מִדָּבָר מֵהֶן וְיִתְעַסֵּק בַּמְּשֻׁבָּח וּבַמְּגֻנֶּה מֵהֶן וְלֹא יַחְשֹׁב בְּאַחֲרִית עִנְיָנוֹ כְּמוֹ שֶׁאָמַר הֶחָכָם בָּהֶן (משלי יד טז) חָכָם יָרֵא וְסָר מֵרָע.
וְהַשִּׁשִּׁי כִּי הַבּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים הוּא אָהוּב לְכָל כִּתּוֹת בְּנֵי אָדָם וְדַעְתָּם נוֹחָה עָלָיו מִפְּנֵי שֶׁהֵם בְּטוּחִים מֵהַזָּקָתוֹ וְלִבָּם שָׁלֵם מֵחֲמָתוֹ וְלֹא יִפְחֲדוּ מִמֶּנּוּ עַל נְשֵׁיהֶם וְעַל מָמוֹנָם. וְהוּא גַּם כֵּן בָּטוּחַ מֵהֶם מִפְּנֵי שֶׁיּוֹדֵעַ שֶׁתּוֹעַלְתּוֹ וְנִזְקוֹ אֵינָם בְּיַד נִבְרָא וְלֹא בִּיכָלְתּוֹ וְעַל כֵּן אֵינֶנּוּ מְפַחֵד מֵהַזָּקָתָם כַּאֲשֶׁר אֵינֶנּוּ מְקַוֶּה הֲנָאָתָם. וּכְשֶׁהוּא בָּטוּחַ מֵהֶם וְהֵם בְּטוּחִים מִמֶּנּוּ יֹאהֲבֵם וְיֹאהֲבוּהוּ כְּמוֹ שֶׁכָּתוּב (תהלים לב י) וְהַבּוֹטֵחַ בַּה׳ חֶסֶד יְסוֹבְבֶנּוּ.
וּמִי שֶׁאֵינֶנּוּ בּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים אֵין לוֹ אוֹהֵב מִפְּנֵי שֶׁהוּא בְּכָל עֵת חוֹמֵד אוֹתָם וּמְקַנֵּא בָּם וְחוֹשֵׁב כָּל טוֹבָה שֶׁתַּגִּיעַ אֲלֵיהֶם סָרָה מִמֶּנּוּ וְשֶׁטַּרְפֵּיהֶם לְקוּחִים מִטַּרְפּוֹ וְכָל מָה שֶׁנִּמְנָע מִמֶּנּוּ מִתַּאֲווֹתָיו הוּא בַּעֲבוּרָם וּבְיָדָם לְהַגִּיעוֹ אֶל תַּאֲווֹתָיו. וְאִם תְּבוֹאֵהוּ רָעָה אוֹ פֶּגַע בְּמָמוֹנוֹ וּבָנָיו יַחְשֹׁב כִּי הוּא מֵאִתָּם וְשֶׁבְּיָדָם לְהַעֲבִיר הַנֶּזֶק וְלִדְחוֹת הָרָעָה מֵעָלָיו. וְכֵיוָן שֶׁקָּדְמוּ אֵלֶּה הַהַקְדָּמוֹת בְּנַפְשׁוֹ יָבוֹא בַּעֲבוּר זֶה לִמְאֹס אוֹתָם וּלְדַבֵּר בָּהֶם וּלְקַלְּלָם וְלִשְׂנֹא אוֹתָם וְהוּא הַנִּמְאָס בִּשְׁנֵי הָעוֹלָמִים וְהַמְּגֻנֶּה בִּשְׁנֵי הַמְּעוֹנִים כְּמוֹ שֶׁאָמַר הַכָּתוּב (משלי יז כ) עִקֶּשׁ לֵב לֹא יִמְצָא טוֹב.
וְהַשְּׁבִיעִי כִּי הַבּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים לֹא יֶאֱבַל בְּהִמָּנַע בַּקָּשָׁה וְלֹא בְּהִפָּקֵד אָהוּב וְלֹא יֶאֱצֹר הַנִּמְצָא וְאֵינֶנּוּ חוֹשֵׁשׁ לְיוֹתֵר מִטֶּרֶף יוֹמוֹ כִּי לֹא יַעֲלֶה עַל לִבּוֹ מָה יִהְיֶה לְמָחֳרָתוֹ מִפְּנֵי שֶׁאֵינוֹ יוֹדֵעַ עֵת בּוֹא קִצּוֹ וּבוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים לְהַאֲרִיךְ לוֹ בּוֹ וּלְהַזְמִין טַרְפּוֹ וּמְזוֹנוֹ בּוֹ. וְאֵינֶנּוּ שָׂמֵחַ בֶּעָתִיד וְלֹא יֶאֱבַל לוֹ כְּמוֹ שֶׁאָמַר הַכָּתוּב (משלי כז א) אַל תִּתְהַלֵּל בְּיוֹם מָחָר כִּי לֹא תֵדַע מַה יֵּלֶד יוֹם, וְאָמַר בֶּן סִירָא (גמרא סנהדרין ק ב) אַל תֵּצַר צָרַת מָחָר כִּי לֹא תֵדַע מַה יֵּלֶד יוֹם, מָחָר יָבֹא וְאֵינֶנּוּ וְנִמְצָא מִצְטַעֵר עַל עוֹלָם שֶׁאֵינוֹ שֶׁלּוֹ. אֲבָל דַּאֲגָתוֹ וְאֶבְלוֹ עַל מָה שֶׁהוּא מְקַצֵּר בּוֹ מֵחוֹבוֹת הַבּוֹרֵא וּמִשְׁתַּדֵּל לִפְרֹעַ מָה שֶׁיּוּכַל לִפְרֹעַ מֵהֶם בְּנִרְאֵהוּ וּבְנִסְתָּרוֹ מִפְּנֵי שֶׁהוּא חוֹשֵׁב בְּמִיתָתוֹ וּבוֹא יוֹם הָאֲסִיפָה. וּפַחְדּוֹ שֶׁיְּבוֹאֵהוּ הַמָּוֶת פִּתְאֹם יוֹסִיף לוֹ הִשְׁתַּדְּלוּת וּזְרִיזוּת לְהָכִין צֵידָה לְאַחֲרִיתוֹ וְלֹא יַרְגִּישׁ עַל מָה שֶׁיַּזְמִין לָעוֹלָם הַזֶּה וְהוּא מָה שֶׁאָמְרוּ (משנה אבות ב י) שׁוּב יוֹם אֶחָד לִפְנֵי מִיתָתְךָ וּפֵרְשׁוּ בּוֹ (גמרא שבת קנג א) יָשׁוּב הַיּוֹם שֶׁמָּא יָמוּת לְמָחָר וְנִמְצָא כָּל יָמָיו בִּתְשׁוּבָה כְּדִכְתִיב (קהלת ט ח) בְּכָל עֵת יִהְיוּ בְגָדֶיךָ לְבָנִים.
וַאֲשֶׁר אֵינֶנּוּ בּוֹטֵחַ בֵּאלֹקִים יִרְבֶּה אֶבְלוֹ לְהַתְמָדַת פִּגְעֵי הָעוֹלָם עָלָיו וְיִפְקֹד אוֹהֲבָיו וְיִמָּנְעוּ מִמֶּנּוּ בַּקָּשׁוֹתָיו וְיַזְמִין מֵהוֹן הָעוֹלָם הַרְבֵּה כְּאִלּוּ בָּטַח מִן הַחֲלִיפָה וְסָרָה מֵעָלָיו אֵימַת הַמָּוֶת כְּאִלּוּ יָמָיו לֹא יִתַּמּוּ וְחַיָּיו לֹא יִכְלוּ אֵינֶנּוּ זוֹכֵר אַחֲרִיתוֹ וּמִתְעַסֵּק בְּעוֹלָמוֹ אֵינֶנּוּ מְעַיֵּן בְּעִנְיַן תּוֹרָתוֹ וְצֵידָתוֹ וּבֵית מוֹעֲדוֹ. וְהָיָה בִּטְחוֹנוֹ בַּאֲרִיכוּת יָמָיו בָּעוֹלָם סִבָּה לְאֹרֶךְ תַּאֲוָתוֹ בְּעִנְיָנָיו וְסִבָּה לְקֹצֶר תַּאֲוָתוֹ בְּעִנְיְנֵי אַחֲרִיתוֹ.
וְכַאֲשֶׁר יוֹכִיחֶנּוּ מוֹכִיחַ וְיוֹרֶנּוּ מוֹרֶה וְיֹאמַר לוֹ: עַד מָתַי אַתָּה מִתְעַלֵּם מֵחֲשֹׁב בְּצֵידָתְךָ וְעִנְיְנֵי בֵּית מוֹעַדְךָ?
יֹאמַר עַד שֶׁיִּהְיֶה לִי דֵּי פַּרְנָסָתִי וְסִפּוּקִי וּלְכָל אֲשֶׁר אִתִּי מֵאִשָּׁה וּבָנִים עַד סוֹף יָמֵינוּ תָּנוּחַ נַפְשִׁי מִדַּאֲגוֹת הָעוֹלָם וְאֶפְנֶה לִפְרֹעַ חוֹבוֹתַי לַבּוֹרֵא וְאֶחְשֹׁב בְּסִבּוֹת הַצֵּידָה לְיוֹם הַמּוֹעֵד.
Chovos HaLevavos · Shaar HaBitachon, ch. 5
Rishonim
The seven ways one who trusts in G-d differs from one who does not, in seeking a livelihood
Chovos HaLevavos, Shaar HaBitachon, ch. 5
As for the difference between one who trusts in G-d and one who does not, in how each works through the means of earning a living, I say that one who trusts in G-d differs from one who does not trust in Him in seven things.
The first: one who trusts in G-d accepts His judgment in all his affairs, and thanks Him for the good and for the bad, as [Iyov] said, “Hashem gave and Hashem took; may the Name of Hashem be blessed” (Iyov 1:21), and as it is written, “I will sing of kindness and judgment” (Tehillim 101:1). Our Rabbis, of blessed memory, said, “If kindness, I will sing; if judgment, I will sing” (Berachos 60b), and they said, “A person must bless [Hashem] for the bad just as he blesses for the good” (Mishnah Berachos 9:5).
One who does not trust in G-d takes pride in the good, as it says, “For the wicked man boasts of his heart’s desire, etc.” (Tehillim 10:3), and rages at G-d over the bad, as it says, “When he is hungry, he will rage and curse his king, etc.” (Yeshayahu 8:21).
The second: one who trusts in G-d has a tranquil soul and a calm heart in the face of [Hashem’s] decrees, because he knows that the Creator directs them for his good, in this world and in the next, as David, alav hashalom, said, “Wait silently for G-d alone, my soul, for my hope is from Him” (Tehillim 62:6). One who does not trust in G-d is in constant distress and long worry, and grief and sadness never leave him, in good times and in bad. In good times, because he is not content with what he has, and he strives to add to it, to gain more and to gather in. In bad times, because he loathes it, and it goes against his desire, his nature and his inclinations. And so the wise man said, “All the days of the poor man are bad, etc.” (Mishlei 15:15).
The third: one who trusts in G-d, even when he works through means, does not rely on them in his heart, and does not expect benefit or harm from them without the will of G-d. He works through them only as a way of serving the Creator, who commanded [man] to work in the world, to settle it and build it up. If benefit comes to him, or harm is turned away through them, he thanks G-d alone for it. He does not come to love them or cherish them more, and his soul does not rest on them more; rather, his trust in G-d grows stronger, and his heart leans on Him, not on the means. And if the means do not help him, he knows that his livelihood will come to him when Hashem wills, through whatever way He wills. He does not come to despise them because of this, and he does not stop working through them as a way of serving the Creator.
One who does not trust in G-d works through the means because he trusts in them, that they will benefit him and keep harm away from him. If they benefit him, he praises them and praises his own effort in them, and he chooses them and turns to nothing else. If they do not benefit him, he abandons them, despises them, and loses all interest in them, as the pasuk says, “Therefore he sacrifices to his net and burns incense to his trawl” (Chavakuk 1:16).
The fourth: when one who trusts in G-d has something left over beyond his food, he spends it on what fulfills the will of the Creator, with a generous spirit and a good heart, as it says, “For everything is from You, etc.” (Divrei HaYamim I 29:14).
One who does not trust in G-d does not think the world and everything in it is enough for his livelihood and his needs. He holds on to his money and will not pay out of it what he owes the Creator and what he owes people; and he does not notice it until his money is lost and left to someone else, as the wise man said, “There is one who scatters and gains more, and one who holds back more than is right, only to come to want” (Mishlei 11:24).
The fifth: one who trusts in G-d works through the means of this world in order to prepare from them provisions for his end and supplies for his eternal home. Whatever he sees clearly will keep his Torah and his world safe, he works at; and whatever would bring some loss to his Torah, or lead him to rebel against the Creator, he does not work at, so as not to bring sickness upon himself in place of healing.
One who does not trust in G-d trusts in the means, and his mind rests on them. He keeps away from none of them, works through the praiseworthy and the shameful alike, and does not think about where his affairs will end, as the wise man said of them, “A wise man fears and turns away from evil, [but a fool is reckless and confident]” (Mishlei 14:16).
The sixth: one who trusts in G-d is loved by every kind of people, and they are at ease with him, because they are sure he will not harm them, and their hearts are at peace with him; they do not fear him for their wives or their money. He too feels safe from them, because he knows that his benefit and his harm are not in the hand of any created being or in its power. Therefore he does not fear their harm, just as he does not hope for their benefit. And since he feels safe from them and they feel safe from him, he loves them and they love him, as it is written, “One who trusts in Hashem will be surrounded by kindness” (Tehillim 32:10).
One who does not trust in G-d has no friend, because he always covets what others have and envies them. He thinks that every good that comes to them has been taken from him, that their livelihood has been taken from his, and that whatever he desires and is denied is because of them, and it is in their power to get it for him. And if some harm or misfortune strikes him, in his money or his children, he thinks it is from them, and that it is in their power to remove the harm and turn the evil away from him. Once these ideas are settled in his soul, he comes because of them to despise people, to speak against them, to curse them and to hate them; and he is despised in both worlds and disgraced in both dwellings, as the pasuk says, “The crooked of heart will not find good” (Mishlei 17:20).
The seventh: one who trusts in G-d does not grieve when something he asked for is withheld from him, or when someone he loves is taken from him. He does not store up what he has, and he does not concern himself with more than his food for the day. For he does not think about what will be tomorrow, since he does not know when his end will come; and he trusts in G-d to lengthen his days and to provide his food and sustenance in them. He does not rejoice over the future, and he does not grieve over it, as the pasuk says, “Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day will bring” (Mishlei 27:1); and Ben Sira said, “Do not worry about tomorrow’s trouble, for you do not know what a day will bring. Tomorrow will come and he is gone, and he will have grieved over a world that is not his” (Sanhedrin 100b). Rather, his worry and his grief are over where he falls short in what he owes the Creator, and he works to make up whatever he can of it, outwardly and inwardly, because he thinks about his death and the coming of the day he is gathered in. His fear that death will come to him suddenly adds to his effort and his zeal to prepare provisions for his end, and he pays no mind to what he lays up for this world. This is what [Chazal] said, “Repent one day before your death” (Avos 2:10), and they explained, “Let him repent today, for he may die tomorrow; and so all his days are spent in teshuvah” (Shabbos 153a), as it is written, “Let your garments be white at all times” (Koheles 9:8).
One who does not trust in G-d grieves greatly over the misfortunes of the world that keep coming upon him, over the loss of those he loves, and over the requests that are withheld from him. He lays up much of the world’s wealth, as if he were sure he would never pass on, and the fear of death has left him, as if his days would never end and his life never be finished. He does not remember his end; he busies himself with his world, and does not look into the matter of his Torah, his provisions and his eternal home. His confidence that he will live long in the world makes his desire for its affairs long, and his desire for the affairs of his end short.
When someone rebukes him and teaches him, and says to him, “How long will you keep from thinking about your provisions and the matters of your eternal home?”
he says, “Until I have enough for my livelihood and my needs, and for all who are with me, my wife and children, to the end of our days. [Then] my soul will rest from the worries of the world, and I will turn to paying what I owe the Creator and thinking about the means of preparing provisions for the appointed day.”